Here we go again with things that tear us APART.
Adversity leads to Pessimism that leads to Aggravation and Anger. I can turn those feelings inward or outward. When my Aggravation and Anger are inside me it gets self-destructive. When I was working so hard to be perfect I used my anger at those failures to motivate myself to do better next time. Some of my favorite ways to self motivate were horrible attacks on my self-worth.
I could say, things like "Gary, you are so stupid it is a wonder you made it through high school. "
I might predict my own terrible future with, "Gary, you will never amount to anything".
Of course that would inevitably lead me to Anxiety as well as Anger. What a "wonderful" mixture of good feelings and up-building self-talk.
After beating myself up I might switch and attack others with my Anger. It was always made to sound as though I was simply disagreeing with people but in reality I was mean and intentionally destructive. One time I was criticizing another person and my dad attempted to correct me. I replied, "I am just calling a spade a spade." Dad said, "No, you are calling it a damn shovel!"
Inner anger comes out in destructive ways. "It does not work bring God's blessings".
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